Drama in a Friendly World?

You might have heard me saying that the first & the second Pillars are very strongly connected together & therefore it's better not to leave one without the other, but rather work through them both as soon as possible.

In this post I want to explore with you why is it the case & what to watch out for.

Let's quickly recap what both Pillars were about.

Pillar N1 - whether or not I believe that:

✓ the world around me is friendly

✓ it is my playground where

✓ I will be able to easily find everything I need for my game called Life

✓ without unnecessary difficulties

More about it you can read here.

Pillar N2 is about the interactions with other people & whether or not they are

✓ efficient,

✓ meaningful and

✓ successful.

More about the second Pillar you can read here.

So why one can't live without the other?

See, the world around us is not only the abstract or physical thing that we can observe, feel, interact with. It's also people.

And although changing the bigger picture is powerful and important step, we can't be leaving out the smaller, but so powerful components as other human beings in that world.

During the work on The First Pillar we are learning to trust, open up and see possibilities.

But if at the same time you are stuck in, for instance, Prosecutor's position - inside you will create a battle of two conflicting views, which can lead to:

● confusion,

● being unsettled &

● closing from everyone and everything even more.

The thing is, that one of these views you knew for a long time, it's much stronger & has more power and mental evidence collected over the years, to support it.

It will start to figuratively fight for its life, so the hopes for the other, newer view to win and change everything internally become very slim the longer you leave it.

Even if you'd start from the opposite end: changing your positions, but leaving out the transformation of the world's view.

Very soon you will go back to what you know, because outside is still scary and nasty...

Whatever role you were predominantly playing, more likely was your survival mechanism in that scary world, that's why it will eventually take over again, regardless of how well you managed to connect with your subconscious and transform it previously.

Working with one Pillar and leaving the other one out will take you to a space of internal conflict that in 99,9% of the time will result in returning to the old behaviour patterns & making them stronger than before.

Kinda sad if you ask me.

MY EXPERIENCE WITHIN THIS MATTER

Since I'm working on myself to test my theory, I'm taking a bit longer than it will happen for my clients. That way I can definitely experience whatever you might be going through.

Right now I have completed the Pillar One, but haven't started the Pillar Two yet and can definitely see the results of what I'm talking about.

How does it look for me:

I go from:

✓ wanting to share this project,

✓ create opportunities for it's growth,

✓ speaking about it with others

to

✘ Drama Triangle, especially Victim mentality (thinking that I will never be able to lift it off the ground etc.) few times a week, sometimes even in one day.

Like a crazy mental rollercoaster!

✓ I feel uplifted the minute I think about it all from the perspective of sharing the project with the world & don't even notice how some times:

✘ I get distracted, loose mood, momentum and disappear into my thoughts about how useless it all is 💭

I go from:

✓ eating healthy,

✓ having energy,

✓ feeling great

to

✘ eating crappy food,

✘ crashing with sugar in my blood and

✘ feeling very pessimistic in no time and often I truly don't notice how it happens.

Just like a swing, one minute I'm recording a video for my YouTube channel and other minute I can't be asked to edit it or post it, thinking that it's 💩

That's a swing of conflicting energies within. Mine was caused by work on first Pillar while second one is still in progress.

You could argue & say, Renata, didn't you have that before?

Well that's the thing that not really.

Not to that extend.

My highs were much rarer and not so strong. My lows were more constant and harder to get out of. The swing like that could take months, where now just days and even hours.

And the fact that I'm still working on this project as planned, going through it all as my own client & sharing my progress - pure reflection of the work done so far 🥳

So for sure some shift is happening within me and in my behaviour, which I'm extremely happy about ! and focusing on that to not let myself go back to what it used to be like. Especially before I sort out the other Pillar :)

Next time I will tell you what My Before looks like within the Pillar N2 & will dive into the work! Are you ready for another transformation?

If you have missed my work on the first Pillar, check out this folder.

And by the way, the transformation could also be yours :) if you want to get on board or find out more:

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Until the next time,

Renata Dar